you don't care, but it was the best moment of my life.

I was thinking about you again today. Remembering our past together. I realized something.
I realized that I have a hard time thinking of memories that make me smile. All I can remember when I think of you are the times when you would take my money, my food. When you would take me away from my friends and family. The only good memories I have are when you would compliment my appearance, or when you would tell me things like that I was the only who really cared about you.
I can see now that you never told me how much you cared about me. And that’s because I don’t think you ever really did. And that really tears me apart. It really kills me that after all we’ve been through, everything that happened, it was all a lie. I was a convienient way for money and food, but when it got to more, you ran away and then made me feel like it was all my fault.
The time we spent together meant more to me than you will ever know, but I can see now that it meant nothing to you.
There will always be a place in my heart for you, and it will take me a long time to get over this.
But, I need to forget you, please let me.
This hurts too much.
Your memory haunts everything I do.
Let me move on.