I’m not going to lie anymore. I’m going to be honest. I’m going to be honest with you, but more importantly, I’m going to be honest with myself.
I miss you.
There, I said it. I miss you so bad it hurts. But I don’t wish we were still friends. I don’t wish we still talked. I only wish you hadn’t changed. I wish you were still the person I used to love. If you were, there isn’t a doubt in my mind that we would still talk, that we would still be the best of friends. Because when you were that person, you were one of the greatest friends I ever knew. I think I got to see a side of you that no one else saw. Because no one cared for you like I did. And I know the reason no one liked that we were friends is because no one saw the wonderful, generous, funny person I knew. I wish they’d had the chance to see that side of you, because if they did I know they would have loved you too.
I know that I need to move on though. I know that what we had is something we’ll never have together, ever again. That makes me sad, because I know it was special, but happy because I know that the pain is over. Also, I know that if I could change things, and make you the person I used to know so well, that I would. But that won’t ever happen. We’ve both made decisions that have influenced our relationship in one way or another.
So I guess all I’m saying is that I miss the you that I used to know. I want you to know how much you meant to me, and how often I think about you. I love you. Even if you aren’t the same person anymore, I know that person is still deep down inside of you.
I don’t know where the world is going to take us, but I can only hope you find true happiness, whatever happens.
I miss you.
There, I said it. I miss you so bad it hurts. But I don’t wish we were still friends. I don’t wish we still talked. I only wish you hadn’t changed. I wish you were still the person I used to love. If you were, there isn’t a doubt in my mind that we would still talk, that we would still be the best of friends. Because when you were that person, you were one of the greatest friends I ever knew. I think I got to see a side of you that no one else saw. Because no one cared for you like I did. And I know the reason no one liked that we were friends is because no one saw the wonderful, generous, funny person I knew. I wish they’d had the chance to see that side of you, because if they did I know they would have loved you too.
I know that I need to move on though. I know that what we had is something we’ll never have together, ever again. That makes me sad, because I know it was special, but happy because I know that the pain is over. Also, I know that if I could change things, and make you the person I used to know so well, that I would. But that won’t ever happen. We’ve both made decisions that have influenced our relationship in one way or another.
So I guess all I’m saying is that I miss the you that I used to know. I want you to know how much you meant to me, and how often I think about you. I love you. Even if you aren’t the same person anymore, I know that person is still deep down inside of you.
I don’t know where the world is going to take us, but I can only hope you find true happiness, whatever happens.
im so proud of you! :)
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